working hard is tiring

i know i promised myself that i would work harder this year, that i would try not to be too passive. well... got what i wanted. since starting with my interior decor course, all my free time have been taken over by magazine browsing, lecture-reading and working on my assignment. wedding plans have started to take a back seat, especially last week when i had to race to get my assignment done and posted on time. i wasn't sure before if i can handle studying as well as planning the wedding for the second half of this year but i am now sure that the next course will have to wait until after the wedding. it's just way too much work for me to handle both. obviously if i wanted to i can. it's not like i have to do wedding planning everyday. but then if i have to study and then plan the wedding, i might not have time to do anything else which is not healthy as well.

work is not fun at the moment. i feel so under-appreciated. it seems like i have to be responsible for everything and everyone all the time. work sucks!