valentine's day

alone on valentine's day, that's very typical for me. lately i don't really care much for the occassion but today i was in the supermarket with one piece of steak for lunch in my shopping basket when i thought, hmmm... should i get two so it's not too obvious that i'm alone on valentine's day? in the end better judgement won and i paid for the one i already have but it was just very curious that i would think that. how many women do that? how many of us will resort to such thing just to avoid admitting that yes, we're alone on valentine's day?

flowers. chocolates. dinner date. if we have all of them will that really make us happier? i can always buy myself chocolate whenever i want. i don't have to wait for someone to get me one. i would go out have dinner by myself if i feel so inclined. it's no biggie. as for flowers, i dont really see the point of buying one for myself. i feel like flowers are best given or received, unless you just want to decorate your house.

having said all of that, it's not like im unattached coz i am still very much happily engaged. i just thought it really interesting my reaction this morning.