i know i promised myself that i would work harder this year, that i would try not to be too passive. well... got what i wanted. since starting with my interior decor course, all my free time have been taken over by magazine browsing, lecture-reading and working on my assignment. wedding plans have started to take a back seat, especially last week when i had to race to get my assignment done and posted on time. i wasn't sure before if i can handle studying as well as planning the wedding for the second half of this year but i am now sure that the next course will have to wait until after the wedding. it's just way too much work for me to handle both. obviously if i wanted to i can. it's not like i have to do wedding planning everyday. but then if i have to study and then plan the wedding, i might not have time to do anything else which is not healthy as well.

work is not fun at the moment. i feel so under-appreciated. it seems like i have to be responsible for everything and everyone all the time. work sucks!

so i've finally decided (and started) to study interior decor. we just bought a new house and with all the interior decorating ideas out there, it's so easy to get overwhelmed. my expectations after i finish this course is that i will be able to come up with my own ideas to renovate and redecorate our own house. i think the bottomline is deciding whether to go with clean, streamlined look or do an eclectic-themed, bohemian-inspired house. 8sigh* the inspiration is endless. the problem lies in choosing one look.

same goes with our wedding planning.

everyday, i think of something to add to an already confusing collection of ideas and inspirations.

just recently, i thought... well, i can't seem to find a suitable background image for the drawings that i have in mind for the invitation. what if... i print the black and white drawing and handpaint them myself? after all, i am planning to enrol to a painting class, why not give it a try? surely i'll find time to paint 50 invitations by myself? now is that sane thought or just plain mad? of course i can always handpaint one and scan it then i'd have the complete picture on file that i can reprint en masse. hmmm... now that's not such a bad idea.

*logs off and goes back to my assignment before getting distracted further*

i just can't stop looking at my new blog template. i so like the girl with the white summer dress with striped socks and boots. it's so me. that is so my kind of outfit. and the colours are exactly my fave.

im trying to finish my moodboard. so far so good. there's just one piece that im not totally sure. it's the right photo for the idea but the colour is overwhelming the existing scheme.

i will continue rummaging through the magazines to find the right one.

*going back to work*

alone on valentine's day, that's very typical for me. lately i don't really care much for the occassion but today i was in the supermarket with one piece of steak for lunch in my shopping basket when i thought, hmmm... should i get two so it's not too obvious that i'm alone on valentine's day? in the end better judgement won and i paid for the one i already have but it was just very curious that i would think that. how many women do that? how many of us will resort to such thing just to avoid admitting that yes, we're alone on valentine's day?

flowers. chocolates. dinner date. if we have all of them will that really make us happier? i can always buy myself chocolate whenever i want. i don't have to wait for someone to get me one. i would go out have dinner by myself if i feel so inclined. it's no biggie. as for flowers, i dont really see the point of buying one for myself. i feel like flowers are best given or received, unless you just want to decorate your house.

having said all of that, it's not like im unattached coz i am still very much happily engaged. i just thought it really interesting my reaction this morning.

i thought it's time to give my blog a make over. it might still change but i quiet like it. i will just tweak a few features here and there.

i've also got a new blog, which i am really excited about. it's about our house and my interior design course.

instead of signing up to yet another wedding website, i decided i would just use blog as our wedding website. all we really need is an online facility to let everyone know about relevant information regarding our wedding. our friends, who are mostly online people, can just email us for rsvp. here's the tentative website

in addition to now having to maintain 3 blogs, i have also taken up interior decor course and obviously will also be planning the wedding. i am equally excited to do all of it. i just hope i don't get stressed while doing it.

fun!