mr burley, i miss your tummy...

one year and 5 months, i've never really felt home sick until now.

coming home from work, knowing that i will be alone (again) and only have tidying the lounge and watching tv to pass the time, i felt lonely.

i used to feel guilty when people ask me if i'm homesick and i say yes, even if deep inside i don't really. i thought i must either be really brave or really detached, from people and from real feelings.

but now that i am by myself for 4 days, i am lonely.

so i guess if i didn't feel sad or homesick before, it's because i didn't feel like i was not 'home'. even when i left home, i am still home - only this time home with martin. i miss him terribly.

the good thing is, i have all the time to tidy the house. :-)