and my muscles loosen

i just had my first full body massage ever and it was wonderful!

growing up, i was a constant visitor of our local hilot coz i'm constantly falling off some thing or just sprained or strained a muscle. most of the time the experience was not pleasurable. i arched, twisted, turned, whined and ached all over but it healed me at the first instant.

the first professional massage i had was ok but also a bit painful.

i've always wanted to have a proper massage since starting work coz something's always aching or stiff one after another. my bf tries his best to massage me but sometimes he's also tired himself.

it took me a while to actually book an appointment, for several reasons: a. don't know which one to book, b. anxious (as i always am about everything) about it being painful.

but the pain on my shoulder's been bugging me and i think i really deserve a massage this time after working 8 days straight and 11 hrs in one of those days. i had two clinic in mind and i went to the one pretending to browse their shop first. the shop assistant was so friendly that i booked an appointment right there and then. it just had a really good vibe.

even so, i was still anxious. shop assistant is not the one doing the massage. what if it's uncomfortable? anyway, it was booked so i have to go.

we had a brief interview first. she asked me about health conditions and any medications i'm taking and what i expected to achieve from the massage. i signed a consent form that i know the procedures of the massage and that i'm informed that i can stop the massage any time i want to.

after that we went upstairs where the clinic is. it's a small room on the corner of the yoga hall. she left me to undress and went back when i was ready. she used lavender massage wax. it smelled really nice. it was slightly different from what i expected. their pamphlet said we can choose but it was what i was gonna choose anyway so it doesn't matter. indian/ethnic music was playing.

she started with my right back and shoulder. that's where i told her i was having problems with. she took her time and it felt really gentle and firm. she asked me if i was comfortable with the pressure and was always conscious that i am relaxed and comfortable. i noticed that she didn't lift her hand, if she didn't have to, even when she's walking from one side to another of the massage table. that felt nice, for some reason. felt safe, taken care for, and warm. she said my shins were so tight and asked if i walk or run a lot. i said i walk a lot and always on my feet at work. i was a little self conscious when she came to my feet and hands. they were cold and sweaty, like always. she asked first if it was ok for her to touch my feet and i said yes even though i was feeling self-conscious about it. when she asked me, i got the feeling that it was just maybe privacy or some sort of concern for some people. i was glad i said yes coz it felt nice. warmed my feet definitely and i didn't feel like she was turned off or disgusted with my sweaty feet. she did wash her hand and it's surprising how it still warm right after washing it. when she massaged my hands, she said i have very soft hands. i was flattered. i always knew i have soft hands but ladies here often have soft hands so it's nice that she thinks it is soft, nz standard.

and it was over. it was a good length. i definitely like the full body massage more than just 30 minutes. it just feels right.

i will definitely be back. i'm hoping to make it a more regular thing. if i can indulge on one thing for myself, i'd do this.

i'm near 30 and i'm thinking of doing some changes when i reach the big 3-0. regular body massage would be one of those.