it's been a while...

yes, i am trying to write again. it's been a while i don't even know where to begin or what to say.

first things first. as i was reading my own blog one boring evening, i found out that somebody actually read my blog aside from my bf. (Hello Kiran!). i know it is a little bit silly to be so thrilled but i am. so much so that it inspired me to blog again. i mean, i didn't really stop, i just got distracted.

distracted by work. yes, i finally found a full-time job in nz. i now work as a sales assistant for an international home, crafts and textile store. while doing his christmas shopping, martin went there in an off-chance he might find something for me. he didn't find me a christmas gift but he did find me a job. :-) it's not something i would have thought i would do. not because i didn't like retail but because i thought i would be rubbish at it. why, you ask? well, let's just say i am not a people person. mind you, i'm not mean, rude or unfriendly in any way. quite the contrary, if i may say so myself. but i just lack the gift of gab. i don't do small talk (which seems to be quite common here), i am not your perky brighten-your-day kind of person and i am painfully shy. all those combined and you've got somebody who might be best working at home (which i do consider very very seriously - just don't have the proper job nor the proper company). not to get side-tracked again, yes, i am now working as a retail assistant. i guess it's not the right time to vent about impossibly rude customers just yet. so will save that for later. stay tuned for that. :-)

xxxxx


aside from work, what am i up to lately (or more specifically, what do i plan to do but haven't really done yet)?

well, martin bought me a guitar. i know i promised i would practise everyday but it gets in the way of watching tv! i mean, come on, i do deserve to rest, don't i? (excuses, haha!)

there's also the endless promise to start scrapbooking. i always liked the idea and i've managed to do a few scrapbook pages but between you and me, i haven't really done it before. (ssshhhh) i have a couple books, a few magazines, lots of scrapbook pages and crafty things. but why oh why can't i get cracking? well.... i do have a problem with cropping photos. i don't like doing it... so... that's a tinsy bit of a problem.

painting or drawing is also one of the things i'd want to start doing again. not that i ever was really good at it but i remember really being into it as a kid and it's always been a dream of mine to paint a lovely landscape, one that would make you sigh with contentment. well, that's always a goal i can work at. in the meantime, i just have to get over being afraid to make mistakes and stop being afraid to waste art materials. (they don't come cheap but they're there to use not to store).

blogging, of course. i'm always torn about being too honest or being too general. like do i pour my heart and soul into what i write or do i write about something remotely interesting but somehow not too personal to avoid from offending people or saying something embarassing? i've heard of people fired from their job because they said something nasty about their boss or their firm. i also know that some recruiting officer uses the net to investigate their applicants background. hmmm... what to do?

and aside from all of that, i am also busy coping with being in a different country, making new friends, adapting a kiwi accent, deciding what to cook for my packed lunch, living healthy and not spending too much.