i have to admit, i have always dreaded valentine's day. it is one of those occasions meant for people with partners, those who are dating and those who are lucky enough to be single and yet feel pretty special coz somebody sends them flowers or asks them on a date or whatever valentiney things people do. i never had that - ever. i even had that moment in my life when even when i was sick to my stomach (literally) of my boyfriend, i was still praying... 'god, oh god, let's not break up until we've had our valentine's thing yet'.

in time i learned to just go with the flow. avoid malicious questions and carry on with my life - after all, it's just one day in a year.

then i learned to accept that, ok, i might not have a date on valentine's day but i can still celebrate. i treat myself - i eat out, i shop, i do whatever it is that pleases me - at the end of the day, i feel good without the paranoia of dating and relationship.

i remember my friend lems once apologized to me for not being able to send me a flower or taking me out on a date for valentine's. but i was already above that. i don't need flowers, relationship and a date to feel good. in time it will come - i just know it.

and it did.

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i opened the front door, looking out for the bus, when i saw a red envelope lying on our doorstep. and my day just became extra special. the cover said - to my darling and i knew who it was from.

what made this card extra special is that i thought we were just gonna celebrate a low-key day - buy some food and nibbles and have an indoor picnic valentine's celebration so naturally i didn't expect him to get me anything but he did anyway and i felt guilty that i didn't.

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i can't wait to get home (i knew i will be home before him). i have to make up for the surprise card. so i decided to make him an instant valentine scrapbook page (it pays to get things even when you don't need it yet - for times like this).


he arrived carrying lots of nibbles and treats and a pot of red daisy! beats a bunch of cut roses anytime!

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i love the simplicity and sincerity of our life together. it's as if we came from the same batch of dough mixture only one of us was exported or imported to a different place. everything about us is natural and right.

love is sharing our lives together.