weekend by the sea

lately i've been feeling so stressed and down. i felt suffocated. i would get irritated and annoyed at the slightest change. basically i was not a very good person. i tried analyzing what i'm feeling, what i'm going through. i dont have any reason to be stressed at work coz this is the laziest days since i got here. my boss is very understanding and sometimes does some of my work (like calling offices) herself. everything's good at home. so what's bothering me? i realized i needed a change of scenery. go someplace else. i've been living through everyday of my life going to one place alone. *sigh* no wonder i feel so burnt out. so i decided to take the weekend off and go somewhere. anywhere. my feet (my bike, actually) took me to the beach. water. it soothes me. it is my home.

solitude.

i thought i was the only one at the beach but it turned out a lot of people have the same plan like i do. so i had to walk all the way to the farthest part of the shore to find a nice, peaceful, resting place.

peaceful.

there i sat, beside a nearly uprooted coconut tree and behind me are roots of a tree which is showing because the soil that was holding it was washed away. and a little more to my left is a very maroon, almost finished hotel. it looks beautiful. i can almost imagine someone shyly peeking through the slightly open japanese-inspired window. lovely.

in front of me, i gaze at the calm sea. blue. blue-green. green. different shades reflected from the sky. high above, the sky is blue. some parts dark - signs of showers to come. far ahead, i saw a faint glimmer of a rainbow. i thought it was the glass of my camera. but when i looked intently, it was a rainbow. fairly faint. almost a whisper. until little by little it appeared shyly - kissed by the sky, tickled by the sea.

soft drops of rain appeared suddenly. i rushed to a nearby cottage. i dont mind getting wet but my camera would.

daydream.

i lay on the bench, resting and enjoying being there, almost drowsing to sleep. you were there. always. whispering me to sleep, tickling my mind.

if i look hard enough, i can almost see you waving at me at the shore. beckoning me for a swim. maybe next time my darling.

glass crystal.

it stopped raining. time to take a walk and take pictures. i walked to the farthest corner of the beach. playing with the water. stroking my feet.

i remembered to look for something i've always wanted to find. jewelries in the sand. glass crystals. used to be broken glasses. polished by time to create something intimate and precious. i found one. white. pure. with interesting cuts.

im going back. not to the place, but to the experience. back to what's important. to what's real.

back to the basics.