Can I.. or I Can't?

After my not so good crash and bruises, I've been a bit hesitant to drive. I particularly feel nervous when I hear a motorbike revving just like the way it sounded when I fell. It makes me uneasy and lots of not so good images flash to my mind. I often dream about crashing/falling off the bike again. This one time, I dreamt that all the cables just started to break and explode and the bike was falling into pieces. But it was such a dreamlike scenario that mostly I don't feel nervous at all. But of course I'm more anxious to drive awake.

It took me quite a while to get up on it and drive again and I was very, very tense that I went home feeling muscle pain. Even then, I wasn't able to drive to work (like I said I would) and have been making excuses like oh, it's going to rain, or the traffic would be so heavy. One week past and the bike just stood there at home, bored and cold.

Over the weekend, I made a promise to myself. I have to be brave, do it and just get it over with.

So I woke up really, really early one Monday morning (to avoid traffic) and braved it out. Gosh. Anybody who sees me must know I'm a newbie or that I'm very excited. My face must look both grinning and nervous at the same time. But the moment I went inside our school gate, I was so proud of my achievement. I made it. Yey!

It still feels weird to be honking my horn coz I feel like I'm showing off but I guess I'll get used to it.

Going home, I decided to get a taste of the traffic and crossing busy intersections. It took me forever to cross but once I passed through, it was major fulfilment. Of course the fact that some drivers really stopped and signalled me to pass is much help. Thank you fellow drivers.

*big grin*